Vulnerability

Vulnerability. It opens up our hearts, and helps us find space for healing. 

For the first half of my life, I found ways to numb the pain I felt. Whether it be through nicotine, food, exercise or alcohol, I found a distraction to avoid feeling pain.

In recent years, enjoying an occasional glass of wine become a nightly ritual. Before long, the evenings felt incomplete without a few glasses of wine. I started to worry that it was becoming an unhealthy habit.

I went to some AA meetings but felt out of place. I tried going cold turkey. I poured myself into my work. I tried switching to tea, but somehow I always found my way back to wine.

And then I lost my mom. Everything changed after that. 

Going through such an immense loss made me feel so deeply. An ocean of wine could not have taken away the pain. 

I’ve decided to stop drinking wine one day at a time. Now, after several months of being mostly wine-free, I feel more alive than ever, and I’m inspired to share my journey with you.

I believe we must feel pain to experience joy. We must walk through dark valleys to enjoy the view from the top of the mountain. Highs and lows are what life is about. They shape us. And we don’t have to walk through them alone.

Social media, despite its pitfalls and flaws, gives us a platform on which to connect with each other. So, to all of my community members - thank you for being part of my journey. I can’t wait to feel again, alongside you.

Lots of love, Jenn xo